Stress

My doctor told me stress would kill me If that is true I would say that my time here is long overdue Kids Family Finances and pain They all shape, form, and affect my life I worry in the morning I worry at night I'm worried when I'm smiling Living paycheck to paycheck Staying afloat Keeping my head above water Holding on to a decimal of hope To much pride to show the world What I'm really going through Triumph after the triumph It seems as if there's not much more I can do Try to better myself but they won't give me a chance Stuck in the middle A victim of circumstance Not measuring up to my full capabilities Living in a country They call the land of the free So tell me why can't I get the same job as Heather, Tom, Billy, or Susie I am qualified Even more than Susie She told me in the lobby she didn't have a degree Heather and Tom didn't seem to even care No effort at all Why where they even there Billy was nice, but had no ambition I wanted it bad, hoping, praying, and wishing Will not discriminate Was on the application But I could tell as soon as I walked through the door My melatonin skin My natural hair My wide hips Full nose and lips Would not be accepted Looked at with disgust They couldn't see past my exterior I walked in with my head held high They didn't like that To them I was inferior So here I am stuck Stressed to capacity My doctor said stress is going to kill me I told my doctor Blame it in society