The ultimate betrayal

They all knew 
I was never the type 
To settle down
Held onto a handful of 
Meaningful relationships
At the time
Never wore my heart on my sleeve
Because of my pride
Ask anybody, 
I tried
To love the way they did.
Always with good intensions 
In my heart
But I could never finish what they had to start.
Go ahead and ask around,
A few will say 
I was the love of their life
Let's be honest,
I'd be nobody's wife.
There may have been an exception
To the rule
To the one woman
I remained true
Never had lust for another
Loved you like a mother
Trusted you like a brother
Come to find,
3 years deep
A trigger from your past 
Found its way to me
Seeped inside of my soul
Ruining 
The very trust I had invested
At that moment of truth
The oxygen mask had been 
Ripped from my face
I struggled for air
Yet, 
It was hopeless to breathe
The best friend I had known
Became the enemy
The wound is still deep
I feel the blood pump through my heart
Each time our eyes meet
There's a distance between us
That I cannot reach
The reminder of the trust 
That was breached. 
I valued your word
Protected your worth
Purged on your love
To have my heart drug 
Through the street
Forced to pull the curtains 
Down 
So I could see
The full light of
Your character
I didn't expect that
I'd get caught within 
The madness
I can handle that..
It's the sadness
I'm unfamiliar with
There's been a shift 
Between our worlds
That we've learned 
How to handle.
But
Nothing could have prepared me
For this.
A currency of loneliness
Gathers around the place
That I lay
Haunting my dreams
So I can't fall asleep
That's not what bothers me...
It's the absence of peace
Fear of the walls around me
Crumbling-
I don't want to forget
What we had
Despite this gradual fall
I rather have loved &
Lost
Than to have never loved at all

Written By: Dez Sevena