A Held Over Engagement (The Story of Co-Dependency)

CATEGORY

life

Sliding in and out of realities,, needing to be needed constantly

Forced and Current in Modality, performed in Songs of Pain Sustained

Sung in torrential downpours of Reigning Reality in what is Sought

Emotional stains blot roads overly travelled, better yet still stalked

As we both waited for freedoms call, not listening to what need 2b

Chained to a relationship of prolonging, captivated in security of mundane

Longing for recognition of not belonging, sharing the same of difference wanting

Scared to be labeled as giving up, as giving in to inadequacy characteristic

Perpetually codependent on an endless ending giving light to new beginnings

Guilty driven and riddled in false sins of fault findings and blame riding

Upholding a union, fearful of God’s Decree of remanding, soul searching solidarity

But most of all God’s Sees we are not happily ever after and will never be

Yet and still we remain a pair, swearing in prayer, to never be the One of Two

Not to abandon a united front of servitude, we cannot fathom gratitude

Waiting for the day of demise of one of our lives, leaving no need at all

Believing wrongly to this being key to set us free, yet trapped and still

Meanwhile not nurturing but killing spirit presently, tormented in needs of victory

Blaming one another aimlessly…….Love is misplaced in constant complacency

Taking for granted the gift of choice and demanding truth of birthrights…….

An end to this too long held over engagement , but still attending

Ensuring generations of woefully repetitive training, maintaining false needing

As our sons and daughters of subsequent tribes are con-templating

Thriving in the prison of unbroken and unrealized lives performance

Not wanting or willing to break a chain of unrelated events

If only we would have stop to temporarily hurt untrue feelings

Calling out and addressing our overplayed codependent engagement