Torturing my Soul

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Sitting here contemplating So much it's aggravating Where's my love? I'm tired of waiting Too many paths, I start debating Choices are laying before me Stretching further than eyes see How ever far I can't even hitchhike It all feels wrong it seems like Whichever you choose You'll most likely lose Don't mind him, jump, try to fly You'll sore or be sore, can't hurt to try Well I guess I can't be picky Things may be tricky If I never step, I'll never know Letting myself take a chance and go This one here has the least invested Start from scratch, nothing tested The waters couldn't be clearer Issue being how do I get near her Not a problem physically More so just emotionally How do you approach love to a stranger That may end up as emotional danger Well that one may not be right You're going in without sight What's life without taking a risk Search her soul, why hesitate, stop and frisk Maybe you're right, I still don't know All of my fears, I should let them go So I'll take yet another chance Trying to find my true romance This next path that I've chose Has all the qualities of rose Beauty in every single petal With razor sharp thorns of metal Though further in I've given more time To not continue would be a crime Yet also a crime to keep my cover Secrets love as she belongs to another Never letting everything slip away Regardless, in my heart she will stay The longer I stay the more I invite pain With bad karma beating me with it's cane You set yourself up for heartbreak Well done, your heart is part steak It's not it wasn't only you doing wrong It was a duet, not a solo song At this point why even try What hope is there in the sky? No limits? No chance in hell Happily ever after becoming hard to tell My last route bares the most potential Growth of possibilities is exponential A love that adds to itself by the hour Taking your to degrees to the infinite power Until now I would never haven't given thought This insane idea, I have truly fought Never been down this road before To a point it shakes me to my core Can be both close and out of reach Sensitive territory I could breach Nerves keep my feelings in a cage The distance between us is age It's only a number when everyone is old Not when they're potential stories untold I may not be the thing for her Maybe not for me either but I wonder I barely have any words for this That could be a complete shot and miss I mean if both parties are able and willing Why not got with how you're feeling Then the voices choose to disappear Left with just me, alone here Life hits me hard, in perfect stance That true love thing, I never had a chance Without any paths, what is there to do Maybe move in with the lady in the shoe Nurse my rhymes, everything is fairy tale Wiping my cold tears, hit the ground like hail What is love!?, it only hurt me How many fish are truly in the sea If none of them are the one Everything you work for is undone I sit and run possibilities in my head Slowly killing me, how am I not dead Dreams and fantasies stuck on replay Hating myself, I begin to whither away Slowly being still and stagnant My heart is a fragment Angry with myself, hand in a fist Torturing my soul over things that'll never exist