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I think I have tried a thousand times
To apologize
To say I am sorry
In my mind
I rehearsed it over and over again
I just seem to not get it right
Time has slipped by weeks, months and years
Our lives have moved past that time
And I don’t even think you think of me anymore
In my mind
I have said I am sorry like a broken record
Skipping back to that moment
When I should have said I’m sorry
I should have called
I should have looked for you
I should have said something
Anything
Playing over and over in my head
My apology to you
For the lie I told to you
I have apologized to you a thousand time
In my mind
I never got it right
I don’t know if you would care to hear my words
I don’t know if they would even soak through
I can’t imagine how you feel
But I want you to know my apology is real
Even if I never spoke it!
©Robin. J 1999
