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Smoking on this black and mild trying to find the words
To speak to god and to let him know what's been Going on in recent events of my life
he's probably Disappointed in me can't blame him for it through
I'm disappointed in myself to in just five month's
I lost my job, my best friend, found out that after
A year and some change that the kids that i love Aren't mine,
damn near lost my sanity, nearly drowned In depression,
almost let my anger consume me and Thought about taking my own life away
the unnecessary pain and sacrifices that I've Indore
These past few month's has taught me alot and Has shown me just how strong
i really am I've shed Countless tears ask countless questions searching For answers
as to why did i have to be the one to Indore this pain these situations
has taught me Valuable life lessons but
at the cost of my heart Being ripped out truth be told lord
i would have rather Took a bullet or multiple bullets to anywhere on
My body at least then i know that the pain wouldn't Last
forever and that I know i eventually i would heal From the physical damages
because internally This pain that I'm dealing with now will always be Here or in the back of mine
you could have taken Any and everything else away from lord and i Wouldn't have cared but why....why the kids god?
