Heartless

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 Torn asunder by confusion a company of chaos,
he thinks not of his own misery but of the ones he oppressed.
Fatigued by his own guilt and shame,
the Love he once prided himself in takes flight,
Leaving behind ruin and damnation.
in vain he strategically manipulates his future love,
casting doubt and pain to those around him;
only to be left alone after the damage has been done.
with their hearts he fantasizes about lust,
and with their soul he deceits to no end.
in the end he feels guilt,
but just as water recedes when there is no rain;
so to his guilt.
in the end he knows the wrong behind this,
but just as the moon sets as the sun rises;
so to his judgement fades.
to heaven he cries,
dear Lord,
i know what I do but stopping it i cannot!
so many have loved me
only to have their own love dashed upon the jagged edges
of misfortunes and woo!
i have loved falsely and without pretense
and yet i still yearn for more!
what is to become of me Lord!
i wish not to be the harbringer of death to one's love
for i want to see it flourish....
and yet i only instill unhappiness into those who love me.
a single tear caresses his face
and with a heartfelt forgive me dear God;
he severs his heart from the bonds within him.
I have neglected you for too long
he says as the last traces of emotions resides in him
too long have i ignored your cries
your pleas
your sorrow.
what i have done to you is unforgivable.
i am not worthy of your love
and for this we must part ways until i can attone
for what i have done.
i must find the true meaning of love.
his heart he buries deep within his soul,
an empty shell of a fool who tainted love;
and through his misery asked to be forgiven.
emotion eludes him and love he feels no more.
one last tear,
a tear filled with sadness that has no meaning
he walks away a heartless being to regain
what he already has; a heart.