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my soul is in torment from self inflicted pain,

the sorrow within my mind beckons misery from my wounded heart.

silent tears i cry asking misinterpreted questions

only to recieve answers that has no relevance.

where am i to turn to?

who am i to ask?

to heaven i gaze upon,

sensing the sadness of my mother and father

as their youngest son struggles to find unresolved answers.

i close my heart to all and begin to pray.

dear Heavenly Father

i come to you in a time of need.

my life is wasted on stress,

thinking of love and wishing upon falling stars that one day i shall find the One,

living in the shoes of another hoping that one day i can be like them;

and admiring woman from afar praying that they will notice me,

i am ashamed and unhappy!

there is no reason for me to put myself through so much pain!

your love is the only love i should care about,

and yet i feel empty!

like a desert searching for water

my soul thirsts for love that i already have!

give me the strength to carry on with no regrets,

the confidence to exile my weaker self

and allow the real me to reign over this flesh!

a man i wish to become but as i am

your child will be forever lost!

i wish...no i want to be found!

show me the guiding light to your soothing warmth,

so that i may live a life free from self inflicted stress!

i want to be happy!

i yearn to have the confidence i know i have!

i want to be strong not just for myself,

but for those i love as well!

I ask this in your name!

Amen.

a prayer from a torment heart,

i feel at ease.

a cry from a sorrowful soul

is now on the verge of becoming happy;

and for the first time in my life,

a facial expression that i deemed lost,

i can finally smile.