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I am a three piece suit that’s on a brother who ain’t , the type of man who smashed his homeboy’s wife two hours before the wedding and the one who drinks the last corner of their chocolate milk in their house without leaving them any money to buy another carton, I’m the type to kick their puppy in the stomach upon showing them off to me, actually, that’s not me, but there are men like that in the world, familia, forgive me, cause I have tendencies too, but unlike you, I don’t wanna be the first to be noticed, I wanna be the last, I’ve had enough firsts in my life that didn’t last, so when I saw her for the first time I wanted it to be the last time she ever laid eyes on her future for the first time, I wanted to be the last first kiss, I wanted to be her last first time ***, her last first time suck, I wanted to be the last man she said I can’t stand you too the first time when she started to double back on her decision to be with me, right before she came back with her first I can’t live without you, and I wanted to be the last taste of her body in the morning, I wanted to be the last text in her afternoon right before she went back to work from lunch, I wanted to be her last hug after she came in from a hard day because kids can excite, but a man can reignite a woman even if she is tired, see I thought the first time with everything used to be a milestone until I saw that last time meant a whole lot more, so that’s why we fight to last in life with ones who elevate us past a level that we thought would never exist, and , the last time men feel like this they usually get married, so it’s scary, to wanna commit to lasting friendship and hardship, that ain’t easy, especially for us, so if we last, consider that our first truth, and our last lie will only be on our deathbeds, when we leaving you
