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Holding back my tears and finding myself kicking holes in the walls and punching the closest thing to me. 
My heart feels loaded with anger and I have no room for forgiveness.
The damage has set so deep in my soul and it has taken a toll on my life.
If looks could kill, I would have my family's revenge.
Thinking and imagining every physical curse that would cause the trigger men harm.
My life seems as though it will never be the same.
I find myself letting off my frustration on the wrong people.
No face-to-face apologies; only God truly judge and has mercy on their souls and forgives their sins.
They took away the true men in my life and they destroyed my mother's heart.
They took away a true queen's treasure, who did not deserve so much grief.
They made a healthy woman ill in a blink of a second.
They took away my sunshine - no longer smiles without showing physical pain.
They took away wonderful times and existing moments from their lives.
At times, I pray that they will rot in hell and their hours throughout the day will be sleepless, overflow their burdens with no cure of their suffering.
Which is not an ounce of progress for me and wrongful of me to pray and think about such negativity.
Sabrina Williams
(Chris)
