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i can't take this ...anymore!

 

 When you spoke those tragic words

…all i had known was lost

Dreams became fleeting shadows

…my emotions, ghosts

And all that had mattered

…was broken...

 

My resistance

Against falling

into the illusion

Was hopelessly

...shattered... 

 

My

collective visions

Evaporated

into the mists

Which,

became a reality

...In present state,

i

…could not

resist…

Still

the void…

Opened before me

Enveloping my all 

 

…i could no longer do…

Anything, but fall... 

 

Lost gravity… 

 

Fell

…faster, 

 

Further

 

…deeper… 

 

 

Then… 

 

Losing grip of

Consciousness, 

 

Thoughts… 

 

Exploded… 

 

Falling

…away…

 

Torn

from my grasp

No time

for contemplation... 

Full energy

expended

In desperate attempt

To hold onto the dream... 

 

Fading

 

…between

 

The fleeting shadows

…now, but

a distant memory 

 

Transgressions 

 

Stacked …and racked… 

 

Mourning …lifelines…

Which never, could

be resurrected… 

 

Dreams,

not to be

reconstructed

Suffer from structural collapse… 

 

Shaken

 

…to the dubious foundation

 

Too hopelessly lost …

Knocked off

…of my inherent trajectory

 

My damaged heat shield... 

 

Can no longer protect me 

 

Coming in too hot…

For a planned reentry… 

 

Too, self conscious…

For …safe… recovery… 

 

Carelessly tossed, aside…

Like a broken toy… 

 

Shattered 

…my recollection… 

 

 

With one hope… 

 

One wish…

 

One prayer,

 

for…

The spark… 

 

Which, just might

Initiate…

The possibility…

Of

what might have…

Crossed into my

Inner consciousness 

 

Fed into

my heart of soul...

 

Left me feeling full

…and blessed…  

 

Rebounded,

from …the blast…

Of what

…believing in you…

Might be… 

 

Then having thoughts 

 

Of …rewinding…

Our whole history… 

 

Inserting, a added twist

Adding hints and cues… 

 

Creating

…patterns

Angles

…of perceptual

views... 

 

Clues…

to solve

The mystery

…of you… 

 

Reversing, the polarity…  

Until such time... 

 

When we …kiss… 

 

When we merge

thoughts

 

…and we blend… 

 

Ascend

 

…to new heights…

And

…swan dive…

Right

…in…

Blend …dreams…

Make our mark …together… 

 

When the loving

…starts… To rebound… 

 

Back …on track… 

 

Could have

…might come to be…

Warped

…my perception, 

 

Back

…into reality…

Back flip, back

…to my feet… 

 

Bring my consciousness

Back …intact… 

 

Refocus

My self reflection… 

 

Reconstruct

…my reality… 

 

Replay …my…

need to be

 

Meaningfully engaged 

 

To love …and be loved… 

 

Where …two like souls

Would be… when… 

 

There truly is Chemistry

To be… Loved

 

…consistently…

 

 

Could not ever be atoned…

Thus i was suddenly left

To my own …devices

Hopelessly ...alone

So rapidly

My world collapsed

My membership

 In your presence

…had lapsed 

 

Revoked my visa, 

 

Shredded …my  free pass...

 

Stunned by

the sudden departure

From the mold …I’d grown into... 

 

Tumbling headfirst

through the vortex

Where was i left

…to wonder…

WTF

…what next

Doing mind+bending

Gymnastics  

 

Almost purely

By instinctive reflex     

 

 

C2