When Love Left me !!!        So one day love decicded to pack his sh** and leave. 
But before you do , can you help me comprehend  
after all you have put me through  
i was never broken , but i did bend  
But then again , Love can be selfish  
willing to walk out on the very best thing that you ever had  
you must be blind , love  
you want ,what you want  
when you want it , how you want it .... 
at what cost ? 
A payment of my heart the only one i got  
and if  you waste one day  
I can never get that back 
Love you were suppose to be the Noun of my life  
the Person i cant live without  
the Place i never wanted to leave  
the Thing that means so much to me  
Love i expected so much more ..... 
I hear all this wonderful stuff and see happy people  
But when it comes to you and me  
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      boom , there it is !       ugh ima make this short and sweet 
because personally im sick of this 
life is too short for this foolishness 
look-a-here player 
It makes me sick to deal with a Mr. Fix it type of man 
in the beginning you knew where you stand 
with a masterplan in the back of your head 
like a witch , just waiting to cast your spell 
a wolf in sheep clothing 
preying on the innocent one 
you should be ashame of all the issues your have produced 
and frankly , im totally done with you 
i will no longer be yo fool..... 
you take 3 steps foward , then 6 steps back 
and that personality you once had , now , simply lacks 
so consider me done and exposion at its end ............ 
and BOOM , there it is !!!!!! 
  
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      The women of my dream        She is crafted with the finest ingredients 
mixed well together to be the most beautiful women life has ever seen 
the hell gets hotter , and the fire keeps burning 
but like a diamond 
She came out shining 
Other women test her 
thinking they can control her mind 
but truth is 
they going out of Their Way 
to show & tell 
selling their souls for a slope fall to hell 
and ladies alll of your tatics......Fail !! 
And when she speaks her voice carries strength 
after lifing wights and discipline 
her mind is in shape 
and backstabbers looks a little over weight 
She sits back and watch others stir up a hot mess 
trying to complete a puzzle with missing pieces 
but clearly thats impossible 
she is daring and very determined to reach the Remarkable 
her heart is guarded but willing 
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      A mind is a terrible to waste !!       You dont have to be in prison to be a prisoner 
your mind is still trapped 
failing to acknowledge who you are 
everbody attached to you will suffer until you get set free 
You sit back and lie to yourself 
that this is the way life should be 
Negro , a hard life is not the only way to build identity 
Going though situations just to say 
"You dont know what i have been though " 
is not the only way God can use you 
Yet , you settle for weekly visits 
seperated by glass 
with no human interaction ..... 
Can you sense my frustaration !!! 
I can see your potential 
and where God can take you 
Yet , you waste energy 
trying to fill up holes ....more like an empty soul .... 
but dont you know...... 
That high will go away , that hang over will never stay, and that sripper will stop dancing when she gets paid 
what im really trying to say 
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      What it is :)       Its just something about when a wise person speaks 
its like being refreshed on a mountain peaks 
i have never been up that high , or even tried to climb 
but if my words can create visions , then i will Speak it Alive 
To know the path of the past 
is just motivation for what is yet to come 
REAL POETS STAND UP , the world need some 
of what we have to offer ....... 
When history speaks my heart tends to open 
more then my mouth 
But thats fine , its a safe place just in case , things go south 
I have respect for most of the poets i come across 
because writing and reading is fundimental 
thats what i was taught 
and to mix up your words with a little expression 
is another way to share your emotions compassion 
So , to all the people who write with a purpose 
nothing but love is flowing from me 
allow you pen and paper to make lo...  | 
  
  
  
       
      Speak It !!!!       life seem brighter since i've learned a women's worth 
low-self esteem had my mind trapped like detention 
not knowing it can be defeated 
detention was just a way to get your attention 'Not kill ya ' 
Since i have came into the knowlegde of who I am 
i have improved " Communication" 
Perfecting my craft daily " Dedication" 
shedded my snake skin to reveal a new me "High school Diploma" 
comfortable in my skin " meditate in this aroma " 
I just want a spot in heaven " Earn" 
along the way , digest , all the many lessons i have learned 
my life was already wrote out 
In God We Trust 
if you are living , without life , then H*ll you just a bust 
that comes and go 
do you really want to be a walking one night stand ? 
and the world remember what you did but forget your name !!!! 
life is a blessing and to live it is a Must !! 
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      As you sleep...       As you sleep....... 
I think about all the hell you have put me though 
the money , the tears , lies and the many things you pursue 
You went out and slept with the devil 
you are an STD ( Snake Transfering Demons ) 
selfishly , you decided to still sleep with me 
infected me with the demons that were never assigned to me 
and they invaded my mind , body , and soul 
now im fighting demons that take root and grow like mold 
You Look me in my eye and lie , and then wonder why things in your life die 
To me you speak life , but over yourself you speak death 
its not that you did it , but it was the plan of action that blew me away 
then when you are confronted , like a deer in headlights , you have nothing to say 
What makes matter worse is , if the shoe was on the other foot 
next to me , is not where you would be , on to next...  | 
  
  
  
       
      Goodnight       Well , its late at night and im ready to go to bed 
i will wrap my hair up 
and wipe the make -up off my face 
and take some time to talk to God 
I will tell Him how my day went 
my likes and dislikes 
I will tell Him the things that i would like Him to change 
Or if my issue is in His Will , then please show me a sign 
Its at this moment , i feel more beautiful then my skin 
because i have a father who loves me 
from deep within 
and i cant see Him, But i feel Him like the wind 
you may think i talk to myself , but its quite the opposite 
So , As i lay me down to sleep 
i pray the Lord my soul to keep 
i understand no day is promise to me 
and if He wakes me up , and start me on my way 
I will be his blood stream , flowing with love and a strong desire 
to be more like Him everyday 
Goodbye World 
& Goodnight 
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      Look , im a girl from around the way       WWWho in the he** is calling me in 3am in the morning.....Hello........This is who......stop playing.....Im bout to hang up.......Im not......What....How did you kno......Oh , my.......Look...... 
Im sorry for lying to you , but if i would of told you the truth , you would of looked at me differently 
at the time , i was a ugly duckling in a big pond , just trying to make do 
I had goals and dreams i wanted to come true 
i tried selling drugs but i couldnt live with the doubt 
trust was too hard to come by , and the violence of jeoulsy was too much for me 
i paid them to release me , so i could live a better life 
So , my talent became my way maker 
i danced until i couldnt fit another dollar on my thigh 
I had to be , at lowest part of my self esteem , for me to think i was doing the right thing 
money was fast , and no strings attached relationships cast my mind into a deeper hell 
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      Lone Soldier       Lone Soldier 
Chip on his shoulder 
attitude colder then ice 
hard like bolder 
But to a women , he is soft as a bear and pretty nice ... 
it confused me.... 
His looks are very deceiving 
he needs a helping hand 
not a judgemental mind 
that he happens to get everytime he ask for help 
LONE SOLDIER 
a menence to society 
a victim of his own sin 
sad to say 
he sold his soul 
for a unsatified high 
like a snake curessing my thigh 
and he know he got you hook when he hears your silent sigh 
LONE SOLDIER 
a misunderstood ,victim of the hood 
makes excuses like 
I wish i could.....or i wish they would...... 
I saw past his invisable wall 
that blocked every call 
that could have saved his life 
that could have gave him another choice 
Other then violence 
A gunshot to the chest , bu...  |