High heeled boys

A bad little boy

Right now

I have to write this poem now

Right now

I have to say this to the universe

I have to write this before I go into the box

I have to write this before I go into the ground

I was touched

A little boy touched

Innocence is just a word when you get touched

When you know the end of the story

Its the carnal whispers that visit me sometimes

Lick it

Suck it

Kiss it

I was a good little boy

Obedient

Eager to please behind closed doors

The smell of moist moaning and hushed orgasms

Visit me sometimes

A little boy confused

A little boy used

A little boy with a secret

Hiding in plain sight

Living inside my head 

Making deals with demons

She told me not to tell

Silent sinner

Behind closed doors I did what I was told<...

Dreams

These dreams lie in state

A coffin

A casket

Restrained Burgundy velvet

One man funeral for abstract musing

35 millimeter optical collusion

Between the here and now

And the then and yesterday

My dreams are dammed

Infected with moments molested by

Nooses and knives gasoline neckties

My dreams strung up

My dreams under solitary cofinement

Dreams shackled to bloodbourne riots

Jailbreaks at daybreak inmates running for the wall

My dreams reject inward smiles and outward gestures

Dreams with with flesh and blood bogeymen

Killers who assassinate character

Tell me where dreams go to die

Tell me where dreams go to die

Dreams die when nightmares are born....

Cynthia Paulette Lewis

A message to mommy
This woman 
Made me
Pushed me out 
In this old cold world 
Stopped my crying with a hug
Started me crying with well placed slap
This woman loved me before I was in physical form as my cells split in two then four
She knew me before I knew her 
Mommy can you hear me 
I’m crying because your dying 
I replay everything you say
I don’t know what you want me to do
I can’t hug your neck 
A thousand miles away from your smile 
I would walk back to your love 
I’m sorry mommy I didn’t prepare for this moment 
Time is an executioner 
Time is cruel
Mommy is it time for you to go
I don’t know 
Can I go 
And you stay
For a minute 
For a hour
Just stay a little longer 
I love you Mommy

Cynthia Paulette Lewis

A message to mommy
This woman 
Made me
Pushed me out 
In this old cold world 
Stopped my crying with a hug
Started me crying with well placed slap
This woman loved me before I was in physical form as my cells split in two then four
She knew me before I knew her 
Mommy can you hear me 
I’m crying because your dying 
I replay everything you say
I don’t know what you want me to do
I can’t hug your neck 
A thousand miles away from your smile 
I would walk back to your love 
I’m sorry mommy I didn’t prepare for this moment 
Time is an executioner 
Time is cruel
Mommy is it time for you to go
I don’t know 
Can I go 
And you stay
For a minute 
For a hour
Just stay a little longer 
I love you Mommy

Cynthia Paulette Lewis

A message to mommy
This woman 
Made me
Pushed me out 
In this old cold world 
Stopped my crying with a hug
Started me crying with well placed slap
This woman loved me before I was in physical form as my cells split in two then four
She knew me before I knew her 
Mommy can you hear me 
I’m crying because your dying 
I replay everything you say
I don’t know what you want me to do
I can’t hug your neck 
A thousand miles away from your smile 
I would walk back to your love 
I’m sorry mommy I didn’t prepare for this moment 
Time is an executioner 
Time is cruel
Mommy is it time for you to go
I don’t know 
Can I go 
And you stay
For a minute 
For a hour
Just stay a little longer 
I love you Mommy

Cynthia Paulette Lewis

A message to mommy
This woman 
Made me
Pushed me out 
In this old cold world 
Stopped my crying with a hug
Started me crying with well placed slap
This woman loved me before I was in physical form as my cells split in two then four
She knew me before I knew her 
Mommy can you hear me 
I’m crying because your dying 
I replay everything you say
I don’t know what you want me to do
I can’t hug your neck 
A thousand miles away from your smile 
I would walk back to your love 
I’m sorry mommy I didn’t prepare for this moment 
Time is an executioner 
Time is cruel
Mommy is it time for you to go
I don’t know 
Can I go 
And you stay
For a minute 
For a hour
Just stay a little longer 
I love you Mommy

Cynthia Paulette Lewis

A message to mommy
This woman 
Made me
Pushed me out 
In this old cold world 
Stopped my crying with a hug
Started me crying with well placed slap
This woman loved me before I was in physical form as my cells split in two then four
She knew me before I knew her 
Mommy can you hear me 
I’m crying because your dying 
I replay everything you say
I don’t know what you want me to do
I can’t hug your neck 
A thousand miles away from your smile 
I would walk back to your love 
I’m sorry mommy I didn’t prepare for this moment 
Time is an executioner 
Time is cruel
Mommy is it time for you to go
I don’t know 
Can I go 
And you stay
For a minute 
For a hour
Just stay a little longer 
I love you Mommy

Cynthia Paulette Lewis

A message to mommy
This woman 
Made me
Pushed me out 
In this old cold world 
Stopped my crying with a hug
Started me crying with well placed slap
This woman loved me before I was in physical form as my cells split in two then four
She knew me before I knew her 
Mommy can you hear me 
I’m crying because your dying 
I replay everything you say
I don’t know what you want me to do
I can’t hug your neck 
A thousand miles away from your smile 
I would walk back to your love 
I’m sorry mommy I didn’t prepare for this moment 
Time is an executioner 
Time is cruel
Mommy is it time for you to go
I don’t know 
Can I go 
And you stay
For a minute 
For a hour
Just stay a little longer 
I love you Mommy

Cynthia Paulette Lewis

A message to mommy
This woman 
Made me
Pushed me out 
In this old cold world 
Stopped my crying with a hug
Started me crying with well placed slap
This woman loved me before I was in physical form as my cells split in two then four
She knew me before I knew her 
Mommy can you hear me 
I’m crying because your dying 
I replay everything you say
I don’t know what you want me to do
I can’t hug your neck 
A thousand miles away from your smile 
I would walk back to your love 
I’m sorry mommy I didn’t prepare for this moment 
Time is an executioner 
Time is cruel
Mommy is it time for you to go
I don’t know 
Can I go 
And you stay
For a minute 
For a hour
Just stay a little longer 
I love you Mommy

It Only Takes One

It only takes one

Bullet

Force times Mass equals buried bodies

I attended a funeral today

No one cried

Neither mother father sister or son

Shed a tear

Eyes forward in a thousand yard stare

Sitting in a church full of empty amens

Barely acknowledging the pastors punchlines

On fearing no evil walking in the valley of death

It only takes one

Bullet to die

Here lies a 15 year old child of God

With a one way ride in the back of a Caddy

It only takes one 

Argument

It only takes one

Dissagreement

To get your name on a Tee shirt

It only takes one bullet  to die..........