Confusion

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life

How many times can I see it and try to convince myself, its something else? Tired of the bullish, games, rumors like there's nothing else.. I wanna believe it's good intentions and I try to see pass the deception in front of me..seemed like it was in my head but that's funny..truth is that's just sugarcoat for the hurting. Either way its not always good or perfect, doesn't mean that all the work and effort isn't worth it. For once it's a lot clearer, peace is closer and some relief is nearer. I want to get It right cause I've gotten it wrong time and time again before. Im done lying to myself anymore. Eventually things change and there is sun instead of clouds and rain. What I thought I knew wasn't half of it and what I started to understand was barely part of it. Eventually just got tired of most it, rather let it be without me ,if the thought of me was because of it..I'm not always able to find the words. Sometimes you don't need words to show your hurt,frustration, confusion, or denial while you heal and get real with yourself. Sometimes words say it all. Sometimes words barely scratch the surface. What you may believe, sometimes is only part what's on the surface..