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I thought I was losing but I was actually winning
or was I sinning, been too much of a saint for that but still feeling like something is missing, the world is spinning and I am trying to figure out if I am in the wash cycle or dry cycle.
I lost the pattern. Success was something that was prescribed to me but all I have are empty pill bottles.
I keep forgetting that I took the pills, I consumed the message. Just as soon as I would self-destruct, I am indestructable. My perception changed and my vision expanded. They hit my low but my backhand response was upper handed. And I did it with authority sending two messages:
1) I'm humble
2) Respect me
I carry God's water in my body and steam and the first sign of defeat. I thought I was losing but in actuality I was just getting ready.
