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You left me wondering high on a desert sand
So initmately grazed by your mothers disgrace
A dysfunction home base? An afro not silk like your sisters of Pakistani descent
A posh accent
All could not fit
You left and my heart found a hole all the way through to my chest
Even the Rolex on my wrist
The Audi in the yard
The feathered gloves on the weekends did not and would not cover what
was ripping bleeding
Still holding
In your own hands
Waken beat to dreaming you on the couch behind me
A ring to find me
More like the middle finger
Was I not fashion enough
Short enough
Balling enough?
I dived in deep into the waves left by you crashing from Whale ride into Carribean seas
I thought you was of me?
Where now my twentys dreams in smitherenes
Your smile and laughter leaving me so much I may as well have been toothless
Which fool can do that for me now
After champers should I be anyones? Saying your wonderful and special
When all I wanted was you!
No shuddered into the depth of repair, this book, this nook, this craft
Gave me life raft
Away from the sea of fools you left me to
With a token ribbon around my head
I even once wished you dead.
My heart rude boy bled and bled and bled.
