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once...
reflecting back
...in retrospect
at the attack,
which...
left me unprotected
while unexpected...
my reaction,
left my spiritual center of balance,
shaken, yet intact
never would i consciously
allow such strong attraction,
throw me off my aim...
cloud my vision to your game
or was it mine,
played directly back at me...
i dropped my guard,
took a hit
...hard...
started to initiate
a chain reaction,
...created a diversion...
a distraction,
designed to align
and breach my defenses,
so readily...
to let it get the best of me
had i not...
resorted the deck
shuffled the cards
and cut them,
...initiated
the back up plan
while i had
the least of a chance
to replay my hand,
while
i ...could bounce
C2
if, only i hadn't
but... i should have
known, better...
