Beautiful Tragedy

A Part of Me Died

A part of me died that day,

Not with a scream, but reading a text. 

A heavy sigh of regret 

Leaving silence where hope once lived freely. 

Why did I give my roots? 

I didn’t mourn it ..not at first.

Grief came in fragments,

Shards of realization cutting me slow.

I bled in the places no one would know,

The kind of wound that doesn’t scab but echoes.

I feel you every time I ***ing breathe.  

When my lungs contracts..

And release all this air you and I were suppose to share. 

You said your piece, like stones dropped in water,

Ripples swallowing the vision I’d seen for us.

And I stood there, still like a fool or a monument,

Unsure whether to crumble or endure.

But endurance feels like dying when the love has no pulse.

I think the hardest part wasn’t...

Beautiful Tragedy

I am drowning

Fire and Ice

Hot Slow burn

Even hell despise this flame

Aint sweet all though

Suga  my given name

Filled with tainted

And I spit the remains

Need to repent

But thats where my demons comes to play

Hell raiser

Although it wasn't what I originally seeked

Welcomed it because the life I lived made me weak

Thought it could uplift me

And give me

power

In truths it did

But made me sour

Made me a downer

With days that'll make Hercules cower

Tried to contain it

But getting hotter by the hour

Temper rocketin'

Soon to be, off the charts

Aimed to kill like poisonous darts

Went for the heart

But that’s when I got mine

Feeling in my chest

And then back down my spine

Never expected to get got

Hell never tried to protect my spot

Throat in knot's

W...

Eye See You

True colors

Tend to show

When your no longer beneficial

Spittin sh*t like

"You knew how I was and stayed"

:/

Cause the love had been made

Laid out

And I found sunlight in your presence

Wanted my hot to warm your cold

Essence

But you only seemed to

Deaden me

Particularly,

Stabbing me with your words

Killin me with your actions

My hurt

Was your satisfaction

Creating a chain reaction in myself

I poured everything into you

Until I had nothing l...

My Piece

Baby

 

You were my piece

 

Killed them all with ease

 

Got down on my knees

 

To show you how pleased

 

I was

 

My perfect five seven

 

That sent people to heaven

 

Heavy duty

 

No questions

 

Concealed to my discretion

 

We shot em

 

Down

 

But missed the true target

 

Blood

 

On the carpet

 

House on the market

 

And still

 

NO COMMITMENT

 

What did we gain?

 

We drove ourselves insane

 

Meticulously played the game

 

But fo...

Jealous

I'm jealous

That the love she gave wasn't close

To real

And I'm picking up the pieces

Hoping you meet me here

You know

In the middle

50/50

Like it's suppose to be

But ever since

I heard her name

Envy caught a hold of me

She's farther than I can reach

Too far for me to beat

She's deep in your veins

She's the ink that you leak

She's hold the part of you that's weak

But what about me..

Yea I hold the main position

But how can you love,

Me fully if your stuck in transition

Stuck like you're addicted

&#...

Love

Some time the pain hurts

Sometimes it kills you inside

Everyday like a piece of you disappear

Unaware of your own slow disintegration

It hurts so bad

To fathom the fact that love

Will love you today

And forget you tomorrow

The sorrowing conclusion..

Damn.

It pains my brain to think that I a transforming individual. 

Couldn't spark a decent change

Oh it changed

Changed in a shade of black

And white

I could no longer blend the situation

With the pages

They didn't mix

So colorful

I this boring girl

Love you.

I didnt know what I was doing

Don't get me wrong

I changed.

I learned..

I grew

And I won't take that from you

But you turned into a monster

You created the demonic me

And I found peace

Only to give pieces for it

Cau...