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Sunday

I woke up and the sun came out today. I was proud of both of those things. I was an entity in this world and I still had a say so. So I sad so and made it the best thing that it could have been. I was living in and out of sin and trying to make peace with the world. 

I was swirling sometimes, moving left and right and then the world was still with me. I was still sitting in the sun in Gods favor.

Driven Snow

It was all so clear, even with the driven snow tapping at my window. This was an abyss of thought, of repeating the same thing over and over again but still looking for different answers. I was looking for something more. The only problem was I kept looking in the same places and seeing the same faces. Looking at the same fears and considering them magnified. I lied and I was being lied to and I appreciating the lies that were being told to me. 

Thats messed up.

Rumble Young Man Rumble

I was ready to rumble but I feel back, took a tumble and I was all over the place. This was a good thing. I saw all the players involved. I would not have seen because I was too focused on this one thing. And now I was focused on more important things. Things that I didnt think made a difference. I was lost in the ether but it was right where I needed to be. 

I was trying to solve the problem with my own mind and time was not on my side. It was even in the picture. I was running on fumes and the world ate them. 

 I have my third wind and the plan is to win or maybe the plan is to let go of whats not important and focus on whats important. Still learning I guess.

Consistency

How can I stay in the game longer? I need to master my breath and conserve my energy. I have been going full speed with no need to rest but there is something more here that I am just not seeing. I need to be stronger that my feelings. I was light years ahead and it still felt like I was slowing down. 

I was undefeated but I still had to meet my greatest enemy. The one within. I found God and more importantly he found me and there was always something special there and I thank him every day for all the gifts he has given me. 

I take those same gifts and build an empire and I gift it back to him. Im consistent though. I have been preaching that same message for more decades than I can remember. 

I guess principles do endure.

Salty as F

I really dont like when I am like that, I get salty. Like Im spending too much time judging the world and not enough time just being who I truly am meant to be. It is a funny thing being one with the spiritual, following God's path. 

That's the easy part. We are a mix of everything that the Universe is made of and all the while feeling insignificant. Im spewing hydrogen and if you add some oxygen, things can get really interesting. 

With all this water, im still thirsty though.

Wet Blanket

I was suffocating those around me, I was literally a wet blanket. And I just kept constantly pouring water on the situation. I left no room to breathe and worse I could not change my mind and just move the f*ck on. 

I was strong in my insistence and I pushed forward hard. My back was against the wall but I created the wall. I was looking for freedom and I found it. I just had to let sh*t go. 

Tender Moments

Its really tough for people to understand that you care or to care for that matter. We are all brothers and sisters and we have a reason for being here. At least I think so. 

Those moments that you recognize that there is beauty in even the smallest things. That is the true magic of it all. These tender moments.

The Second Coming

I already came once so I guess this is the second coming. I was pushed back and then I pushed forward. I made the world regret would it had in store for me. I raised all the prices, even on the candy bars. I was exhausted but the fact of the matter is that so were they. I was making they pay with sweat equity. 

You not gonna take me on for free. And just like them, I charged a fee. Heavy taxation with representation. I wanted them to see it coming. Even after the first time, I recoiled and slapped back. You can call it a double tap. 

I was eager with retribution and the only solution was for them to back down. 

Disposition

I was in a foul mood today, the world was just not tilting the same and I was spinning off balance. When I came to a stop, I had to reorient. I was speaking Chinese and all the words made sense. 

So hence, I am not a communist but I believe in community. Gather close and lock arms. We have the same oppressers and now my foul mouth has made its way back to me. I was speaking out of turning and throwing draw fours at the same time. 

I was making friends today. In fact, I could have been doing the opposite. It didn't matter though, it didnt matter what I said. The world just wasnt right anyway.

Bacon and Grease

I thought I was eating bacon and it was all grease. It bees like that sometimes, you think you taking a bite out of one thing but you are taking a bite out of something else...and that aint right. 

What did I expect from this life? and that is the most powerful question I will ever ask. Im getting exactly what I expected. I set the expectations, heck you do too. 

Put it in your mind on exactly who are and move in that direction, no excuses this time.