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It had to end this way!
We weren’t getting any better,
There were no improvements,
Only egotistical pride and problems we were glued in,
We weren’t growing as a unit,
Only stuck and still in time with no movement,
You always pushed blame downplaying my feelings,
Preaching to change but causing all of the reasons,
The reactions to your actions,
Putting the battery in my back and mad once I leak acid,
What did you expect?
Me to become immune and numb?
Making me feel like I’m anything but the One of One?
Knowing I’m the two of one that made up your existence when you barely just begun,
Thinking I’m your competition when I only wanted to bring you the sun,
Never allowing for self reflection or accountability,
You let us die wither away with no form of stability,
Saying I can’t love you but being the problem to the probability,
The verbal abuse from your mouth to my ears,
Was enough to accept the breakup and devastating tears,
We tried to hold it down throughout all of these years,
Now having to continue without one another on a new journey with new fears,
If you couldn’t “B” what I need then why proceed in my life and hold me back from my dreams?
You knew I brought the table, silverware the cups and f*cking plates too,
You ripped the table cloth off and exposed me to a life knowing your intentions were never really true,
I ignored the red flags and took a risk and genuinely rocked with you,
I loved you through all of your bull,
Kept allowing you to come back even with little to any acknowledgment,
As you manipulated me while indulging in the astonishment,
Projecting your insecurities and unhealed wounds onto my embodiment, Tarnishing and depleting the work I put towards my development, Escalating every minor issue as if it were intelligent,
You single-handedly destroyed all of the work I put soo much effort in, Loving me wasn’t enough,
You just had to damage from within,
I still love the broken girl who only loved me and lied and played pretend,
But my love is now sent far from a distance,
Wrapped and encased with the best well wishes,
I will never hate that’s to you and your next Misses,
No hard feelings we had the chance we just clearly missed it,
I was only your guide to help you find what were truly missing,
Now you are free to explore and I won’t hurt anymore,
While for me you were a lesson I will never choose again,
Moving with grace and dignity as a Queen within,
Acceptance of a fairytale love gone wrong with the most tragic end.
F*CK YOU!
