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I woke up this morning
and looked to my left
there you were sleeping so peacefully
I had to stare just to take it all in
how could someone sleep so comfortable
after they caused so much pain
I slipped out of bed to observe the damage on my face
looking at the woman staring back at me
tears began to fall
this isn't me
it cant be
I cant believe I continue to allow you to treat me like this
even after I grew up witnessing this at home
growing up promising myself
I would never be in a situation like this
never came to soon
the 1st time he said it was a accident
he really didn't mean it
2nd time he said I deserved it I shouldn't did what I did
3rd time he said it hurt him hit me but he had to because it showed how much he truly loved me
he told me this like I was his kid who had done something wrong
I had no other choice but to believe it
it was so stupid of me
I should have know better
I should have the strength to leave
it feels like I have shackles on my feet
and he has the key
holding me back from leaving
there is a spare key
its deep down inside me
its shaped in the form of love
love for myself
will set me free from him
never to look back again
