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Tears are steady forming
Like the clouds before a storming
Wish I could escape from it to somewhere where I’m normal
Professionally formal
But my heart is lying dormant-Like ingestion of a poison
Thoughts are very noisy
From the pain with heavy voices
Deeper than expected
From a life I knew was hectic
Mother absent-bodied absent-minded living reckless
Frame is made of steel—but the inside’s heavy wreckage
Crying out to God wondering if he got the message
Crawling on my hands and knees I am struggling, I am helpless
Tried to show forgiveness
For the pain that I have suffered
Tried to get away from her
Still claimed her as my mother
Was my parent from a distance
Lonely every xmas
Lonely every birthday
And Lonely’s what I lived with
