a world with no pain

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life

• I'm growing older and goin nowhere,
• I hold in a cold stare,
• so afraid I'm a die alone here,
• in this city that dont care
• I'm  so scared, 
• she will mature without us both there,
• my nose flare,
• my throat tare
• cause the knot is square,
• the thought if I followed it,
• would have me swallowing a hollow tip,
• cause the problem is, 
• I want to see a little girl through her father's mind
• and show her mother life through her daughter's eyes,
• but the solution is far from sight,
• I keep an upward look but to the stairs I'm blind
• and without seeing,
• I'm with out meaning,
• shes my fix the reason I'm fiending, 
• I cant get that hit,
• I'm constantly seeking,
• promptly leaping,
• into a world with no pain,
• lungs swell with mary jane,
• straw smell of pills and cocaine,
• at the bottom of every bottle to anything,
• it's whatever to have no hurt ,
• I'm fading backwards in slow spurts,
• feeling good about low perks,
• becoming less than no worth,
• I was never going back was so sure,
• the ill has returned,
• my will has reversed, 
• I'm docked back on my perch,
• numb inside and out,
• now it's all just a cloud,
• a painless state,
• it's the greatest place,
• because here it's all ok,
• till the high go way
• and I begin to think straight, 
• I aint changed, 
• my problem is the same, 
• once again the pain,
• that I cant take, 
• so it's back to what I hate,
• the land where love is erased.