Modern Day Sarai and Abram

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All it took was one time. One time then she conceived your child. She gave what I couldn't give. She have what I been trying for years to have. Your seed, your child. I am so filled with envy and rage! How could a chick who didn't mean a thing produce a child the first time around? This is like a slap in my face! I tried and I tried for years and the outlet wins in the end. Check mate she scores. One point for the whore. She won the battle but I win the war. She have your seed but I will forever have your heart. One time, one time, all it took was one look and I knew the baby was yours. Her face is of your face. How could something so beautiful cause me so much pain when looking upon her face? People tell me, I should just walk away but it's not that easy. I'm not walking away from the man I love because of a decision he made. I'm not going to hate his baby's mother because she was use and thought a baby would take him away. I feel sorry for the baby, she don't deserve to be place in this messy situation. I am modern Sarai, he is my not so bright Abram. Who ever thought the biblical days would apply to modern day. I am between a rock and a hard place. I want to be selfish and cruel, tell him, he have to choose, either he erase this baby and her mother or me he lose. I am ashamed that I even consider that an option. I was once the girl who father abandoned, I can not dare be the reason this beautiful baby share the same faith. How do I separate my feelings, my pride for the baby and my relationship sake?