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Everywhere I turn misery is watching
Thinking suicide was my only option
Walking around thinking I was a jinx
So I indulge on cocaine and mixed drinks
My universe sucked into a large black hole
When achieving happiness was my ultimate goal
I guess I didn't do it right I guess I failed
Even though I've tried to connect the dots like Braille
Why do even want success so bad?
When the process of obtaining it makes me sad
Wrestling with demons blocking my path
The forces of good and evil rips me in half
Staying persistent has proven difficult
Giving up when life gets tough is typical
Traits of a quitter plotting their own death
God is on my right and Satan is on my left
My conscience is at war everyday's a battle
Every aspect of my life was a hassle
From the days of adolescence to the days of adulthood
Just a young brother struggling to do good
But the allure of temptation becomes a distraction
Growing up I'm held accountable for my actions
The secrets of my past people wouldn't imagine
Still I have to remind myself that stuff happens
