4700
The truth, is such a complicating avenue. To tell the truth about ones self, never ever seems to end well. I'm sitting here in my own heartbreak and confusion trying to figure out what I should have done. And I'm finding myself in the only exit possible.
I have loved you in a way that only movies are made of. I have lost you like every great tragedy. I don't know the hold you have on me but I do know that no one could love you greater. No one may understand it, at times you never felt it, but by my own submission you were the answer to all my prayers, the answer to every single question yet to be asked...the answer to who I was. You...were my dream come true. Losing you was an anguish I never felt, not having you is a death I'm dying every minute, of every day. I need you. I desire you. I crave you. I long for the way you used to look at me, the way you used to love me, the way no one else stood a chance at trying. If I could do anything to get that back I would. I tried standing by what I wanted, not giving in, what I lost was the one thing I wanted the most. Now we're miles apart, a bridge I fear I can never brave. I'd rather live a day in your world than live without you in mine. I love you, I'm in love with you...and I fear I will never love again without you. If I had the courage to ask for another chance...if I thought I could stand the possible rejection...I would promise that any desire you had would trump any hope of mine. I pray that one day we will be back to what once felt so meant to be. I've never loved anyone more. I wish I coulda showed you that. I wish I coulda made your dreams come true. I wish I could love you again.
