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T'ya
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My Apologies

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In my haste…my seemingly callous selfishness,
I inadvertently placed unbearable and copious amounts
of weight and pressure upon your shoulders…

It was my desire…my want…to have someone to
feel me with him…to…fill me…with…him
to patiently pore over me so I might wantonly pour into him…
fusing my Caramel with his Chocolate…my Crimson with his Indigo…
my mmm with his hmm, imbuing our senses in every facet as we’d
accentuate each’s good while making each other better…

Someone to sip me slowly and savor me intently…
to take pleasure in my countenance, yet distill my aura
from the tantalizing flesh that would undoubtedly tempt his…
To appreciate the pout of my full lips but find stimulation in
their articulation as he’d engage in the intellect of my tongue,
palate my words, and thirst for my conversation…

He'd be my armor…my aegis
and I would be his haven…his home
fortifying security and comfort in one another
syncing our foundations,
ascertaining one could not survive without the other…

He’d endow me with the sum of him,
unblemished stains to pervade my essence…
feeling him entirely…filling my entirety
as he’d extract and absorb every ounce of me…
and we’d become the entity,
Man to Woman…
Souls to sole…
we were meant to be…

It’s now I realize how desire can
elicit the mind to wheedle
the deepest measure of self
to conceive
tangible illusions
And in my expectations of you,
I deluded myself and imagined you
to be something real…

In my unconscious consciousness,
you became a semblance of my desires and
I veiled my eyes in your presence
to see you past who you’d shown yourself to be
and granted you attributes
(strength, integrity, honesty, respect, admiration, loyalty…love)
outside of your character
simply because they are a part of mine
I admittedly was foolish enough to trust if a Woman
were all of these things to a man,
he would certainly return the same to her…

I know now a Woman never
has to expect, hope, or wait to receive
such attributes from a Man…
She never has to pad his character
with such virtues and qualities
because they are as much a part of his makeup
as Woman is a part of him…
It wasn’t believing a Man could return these things
that made me foolish…
it was expecting a man could...

So please…forgive me
for assuming you to be something you are not…
for expecting…for desiring...for wanting…for believing
you to be more than
your capabilities allow...

It was unfair to you for me to expect you to be a Man...
And what’s worst,
in the midst of deluding myself
I enabled
you to believe you are a Man
and for that I owe you
My sincerest apologies…

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The Immortal Wize says:

Very raw and open, love it.

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mrmelody7 says:

Very strong write, pleasure to read your work again

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