Excuse Me

My family, think I'm incompetent, 
at times,even a little embarrassingly,
I try to explain myself over and over,
still, ending in a misunderstanding.
I consult with other individuals to express my pain inside.
The Mardell, THAT They once knew
, paid her debt and then SHE died.
She endured so much pain inflicted since adolescence,
that, she stepped in Pandora'S Box and paid her Karmic debt she'd obtained, from all her struggle's and life lessons.
She left behind her Eulogy to read once she was gone,
and so im reciting it in a poem:
To all my Family especially the closest ones, 
I CAN'T REDIRECT MY PAST SITUATIONS,
I LEARNED FROM THEM PUT FOR EFFORT, STILL NO VALIDATION
. YOUR INSINUATIONS OF MY SANITY ARE YOUR ON DICTATIONS,
FREE WILL IS WHAT GOD, GAVE 
SO HOW CAN YOU BE ELECTED JUDGE OF THIS CASE.
TO BE EXACT MY COUNTENANCE IS QUITE HIGH AND ANALYTICALLY CORRECT. 
INSTEAD OF INSINUATIONS LOOK IT UP TO BE MORE DIRECT
YOU PAY IMPOSTERS FOR THERE FALSE perceptions,
BUT SINCE ITS I, WHO SPEAKS THE KNOWLEDGE THEN THAT MAKES IT IRRELEVANT. 
OR, SINCE I LOST EVERYTHING THAT WAS TANGIBLE
ONE THING I KEPT WAS MY COUNTENANCE
BUT YOU INSINUATED LESS OF ME,
AFRAID TO BRING COMPANY AROUND FOR FEAR I BLURT OUT AN ASTROLOGICAL SOUND.
but its okay I forgave you a long time ago. 
sometimes you pay more attentive to others never noticing how bad I was hurting
but one thing for sure I cracked ONE OF LIFE'S BIGGEST MYSTERY
SOMETHING YALL NEVER UNDERSTAND DUE TO YOUR LOW COMPETENCY. 
I ATE FROM THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE
GRADUATED MY CLASS AS TOP SCHOLAR
EAT ANY TIME FROM THE OLD LIFE TREE
ALSO GIVEN THE WISDOM LIFE KEY.
NOW IM A GENIUS DONT LAUGH 
JUST WAIT YOU'LL SEE.
BY THE WAY MARDELL DID PASS AWAY THE NEW NAME ZII
, CAN'T YOU TELL BY THE NEW INTERIOR
IF NOT ITS OKAY FAMILY STICK TOGETHER, SO I LEFT Y'ALL MY POCKET MIRROR