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Today you spoke to me in a voice I never heard come from your lips…
After that I cried.
What was I supposed to do when you told me not to be myself?
Next time tell me you don’t want me and I swear I will stay.
I will stay because in a field full of daisies you were the only rose.
And when I picked you I hadn’t seen anything so amazing in my life, you were Red.
But not just any red, but the red color you would see while standing in the brightest room with your eyes shut.
And when I would open them all that I would feel was God.
So I plucked the rose peddles and tore them apart.
Then told God I didn’t want it.
What in my dreams told me that my life could change for the worst?
I knew you were coming, but I’m not ready.
You are perfection in every way the man was supposed to be made.
You take your time each day to tell me that you are beyond extraordinary but this incredible unbelievable, mind-blowing creation that was meant for me and here to love.
You are young.
And all I know how to do is be a wife.
So as far as I know the time for me is now and yours is whenever you are done with the Black Amber Roses of the world.
All I have gotten were men that tell me I deserve the world without them in it.
How can I grasp a man that will love me more than I love me?
More than I can ever love myself.
But who is this man. And why are you still here?
