Empty

I'm lying here empty broken lost and confused. .don't know where to turn or what to do All out of love with no strength to fight been trying to ease my mind but it's been running all night Replaying memories over and over like and old wedding video trying to recapture the the lost love....where did it go? I lay here asking myself? Why not me? Why me? Why do it have to be me? Why could it have not been me? My tears balancing on the edge of my eyelids like they are waiting for permission to fall I lay limp, numb, motionless the only that is in motion Is the rise and fall of my chest Love ...why can't it make a lifelong home in my heart? It never gives me a sign just packs up and depart will it ever come back and stay? I miss it more than most today....I need to be loved ...I want to be loved...why can't I just be loved??