LOYAL

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life

UNDER THE IMPRESSION IT WAS ABOUT STAYING TRUE TO THE IDEA OF

YOU

THAT I FED INTO THE FALLACY OF ACCEPTING SO MANY IMPERFECTIONS THAT I THOUGHT IT WOULDN'T GET ANY BETTER

BUT MY LOYALTY LED ME TO BETRAY MY HEART

CAUSE I KNEW IT WAS BULL THAT I CHOSE TO BELIEVE 

INSTEAD OF STAYING TO TRUE TO WHAT I NEEDED

I GLADLY PUT ON THOSE ROSE-COLORED GLASSES AND ENJOYED THAT SMOKE IN THE MIRRORS 

THAT EVEN OUT THE STRETCH MARKS AND CELLULITE FROM OUR LOVE 

BUT CALLING IT LOVE WAS A STRETCH ALTHOUGH I KEPT INVESTING MY TIME AND ENERGY EVEN WHEN I WAS ON E 

I CONVINCED MYSELF I NEEDED YOU WHEN YOU NEEDED ME 

TO FEED SOME BLACK HOLE OF INSECURITY WHILE I WHITERED AWAY INTO OBSCURITY..

I FORGOT MY NAME AND WHAT I LOOKED LIKE.. 

TRUTH IS..IT WASN'T ME YOU WANTED 

JUST ANOTHER MIRROR TO COMFORT YOUR NARCISSISM / BUT I CONTRIBUTED BY APPLAUDING YOUR OVERCOMPENSATING CAUSE I GOT WHAT I WANTED WHILE MY SOUL FADED TO BLACK

BECAUSE I COULDN'T BE LOYAL TO SELF. 

EVEN THOUGH IF I LEFT I KNEW I COULDN'T LOOK BACK.

-PHRESSH