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The last 5 months have proven to be
Nothing short of miraculous.
The ups and downs of the days
Had me in and out of spirits.
There were and still are moments of
Reminiscent episodes where reality
Came from out of nowhere and
Sucker punched me in the midst
Of my day.
Leaving me with a distant feeling
Of being alone in my process.
I stare at his picture every now and then,
I even talk to him sometimes.
December 9th will mark 6 months
Without him
I’m not really trying to count
The days but this is a new
Experience for me.
Being on the forefront of things
As they were happening,
In a way made things easier
But on the other hand it’s been
That much harder.
Closing accounts, tearing up mail
Having doctor offices remove
His name from their database
And cancel appointments.
Friends help out back and forth,
With schedules permitting,
Sharing memories with me
Checking to make sure I’m okay.
Some moments I get through
Some warrant a little help.
Only time will tell how much more
It’ll take before the pain is eased.
The real question is though,
Do you really truly get over it?
I’m sure I will in due time;
It just doesn’t feel that way right now.
©11/21 LP45
