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Ever since I was a child
I was told that the world was ending
They tell me to believe in God
But I find it kinda hard
To believe in an invisible man
I try to comprehend and understand
How you create heaven and earth
And do all these spectacular miracles
But you can’t stop all the pain and hurt
that people face every single day
You tell us to stay on the right pathway
and follow the words that’s in the bible
But I found too many contradictions
to me that makes the bible unreliable
My grandparents told me never to question God
But there is so much that I need to know
Why did you punish Adam and eve
from touching the forbidden tree?
The garden of Eden was supposed to be holy
So how did the devil get in?
They say you know it all
Before they were created
you knew Adam and Eve would fall
Is heaven and hell real?
Or is it all part of man’s plan to control the masses?
Why did your only son have to die
So we can be saved?
Could you have just saved us
without sparing your son’s life
or was that story all a lie?
Please excuse my attitude, not trying to be rude
but did Jesus really feed the multitude,
made the blind see, the lame walk?
Did he really change water to wine
Or am I crossing the line
Why did you test job and his wife?
Did he do something wrong?
From what I read
It seem like you did it because of a bet
you and the devil made
That man lost everything that he loved so dear
He almost lost his life
Yes, he kept the faith and didn’t curse you
But I think he did it mostly out of fear
I see people who are faithful and just
Struggle and get treated badly
While those who curse you and don’t even believe
get blessed and live a lavish lifestyle
but in you we must trust
back when I was young I was molested
was that all part of your plan or was I being tested?
That night when I was physically abused
Where were you?
That almost drove me insane
I ain’t gon’ lie
I thought I was about to die
Why didn’t you stop the pain?
I stood over my abuser with a butcher knife
My plan was to take their life
You put too much on me at an early age
Maybe that’s why my heart is filled with so much rage
How can I show love
When it was never shown to me
Every day it seem like I have to fight
Between wrong and right
just to live my life your way
look at how my life started
what do you expect me to say?
I guess you could say I’m cold hearted
What if all this is made up
praying to thin air
and to a God who really doesn’t care?
What if all this is really true
And our purpose is to tell others about you?
I guess time will tell
I just hope I don’t choose the wrong side
And open my eyes in hell
