Faded

I dwell in this hell I created,
Faded and at this time im shameless...
Fake smiles, pretending I dont hate this,
Swallowing a poison that's tasteless..
Wasted potential, far from blameless,
Blatant disregard for feelings, I get drunk and shape shift...
Pain weighing down my greatness,
So every day I weight lift....
Stay lit, trip over things that soberly id think was basic,
Apologize to what friends I have left, knowing they're losing patience...
Im famous, for destroying love, like me and hate made arrangements...
To always stay together, as i mumble disrespectful language...
And whats done is done, like I wrote it in permanent marker, nothin can erase this...
Forever broken and alone, and I accept that, that's exactly what the case is..