Joureny Renewed

Upon these four walls I fixate my gaze hoping to find some sort of clarity as my thoughts speak silently listening with unfocused ears reminiscing of past regret. I pour forth my actions only to realize that there were no words to uphold their meaning I rationalize my intentions. I place my spirit upon the alter and instead live within my flesh for tis is comforting.....but pain is all I feel. Throwing common sense aside I rush head first into oblivion racing against time with no sense of direction confused I come across the same intersection of known variables and parables I know this because it is I who is still standing there...my reflection. He that is without sin cast the first stone, I said. "For with the judgement you pronounce you will be judged, and the measure you use it will be measured to you." I replied. For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also, I said. "But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind." I replied. And I was with you in weakness and in fear and much trembling, I said. "For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control." I replied. I am afraid. Don't be...you are worth more than many sparrows. I feel alone. "I will be with you always, to the end of the age." I miss them. "Blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted." I want to be loved....is my everlasting love not enough? It is...but....but what? Do I not know the desires of your heart? Have I not provided for you when you were in need? Have I not kept my promises to you? I know because I am you and you are me. I created you in my image. Believe in me. My words are unresponsive. I fall to my knees and humble myself as I place a gentle hand on my shoulders we begin to pray. I arise as one and embark on my...no our journey.