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I keep my head up  because that's what the ones that not here no more would want. Stay strong because that's what my family and them taught. I been thinking about my future lately. I don't know what life has in store for me but it gotta  be better then this. Thought i was doin the  best i can. Swear depression don't wanna see me win.  Crying every hour. so many  confusions in life got me questioning things like  is there really a higher power ? So many homeless people is the church really for the community? Why is it so many organizations wen they really ain't benefiting our nation? So many rejected peers y'all wonder why we take shots to calm our fears.   Sick of having my present looking like my past, the girl of my dream just abandoned me, depression took over my mouth when my heart should of spoke just wish u would pick up the phone my heart feel empty now that your gone.  Family categorizing me from my late mother choices or comparing me to my late grandmother incompetent boys.  Bet if I died they ah be the loudest  to mourn me. I don't even get the point life if your living to be extinct. I don't really feel your not by my side so im Back and forth with suicide  you would to if you know what having a good heart and depression ah put you thru. I can't be heartless even if I tried to use my heart less. Only time I  don't give a  second finger is when my illness  won't let my mental rest. It might be because I have huge breast but i don't feel my heart beating I really hope this therapist can give me a reason to keep breathing. I really hope I can beat these demons