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Since when was love just something to be said after I make you cum
after you asked me to come over?
Since when did I become so stupid enough to do it?
It’s confusing
I’ve never been one to believe in love or even think I was good for anything past my tongue or the gem between my thighs
But you spat confidence at me, bent me over, slapped it twice, kissed it nice
Let me rain all the pain that your clouded thought thundered in me at night and said bye
I remember the first time you said it, it was your first orgasm
It must’ve been my 30th high
I don’t remember every detail
It’s confusing
I said I loved you back
This game I was losing
Choosing you over the girl I built up inside to stop people like you from slipping a finger in to sly
You loved me as an experience not as a person
You loved me as a euphemism
And I believed it
You could’ve said I you’re a good lay and I would’ve breath it
I could’ve been your sex toy
I would’ve let you use me every evening
I was damaged enough for it
But you pushed me enough to make me believe more
During sex you called me your little whore
But after peaks you said we could get married by a shore
You built me up and let me fall like Jenga blocks
We played monopoly with my wallet
And you said I tasted of candy land
You said if anyone even moved as I walked you would let your glock pop
You said I give good top
But when I kissed you, you said stop
So I did
I can’t believe it
