Confusing

Since when was love just something to be said after I make you cum

after you asked me to come over?

Since when did I become so stupid enough to do it?

It’s confusing 

I’ve never been one to believe in love or even think I was good for anything past my tongue or the gem between my thighs

But you spat confidence at me, bent me over, slapped it twice, kissed it nice

Let me rain all the pain that your clouded thought thundered in me at night and said bye

 

I remember the first time you said it, it was your first orgasm 

It must’ve been my 30th high

I don’t remember every detail

It’s confusing 

I said I loved you back 

This game I was losing

Choosing you over the girl I built up inside to stop people like you from slipping a finger in to sly

You loved me as an experience not as a person 

You loved me as a euphemism 

And I believed it

You could’ve said I you’re a good lay and I would’ve breath it

 

I could’ve been your sex toy 

I would’ve let you use me every evening 

I was damaged enough for it

But you pushed me enough to make me believe more

During sex you called me your little whore

But after peaks you said we could get married by a shore

You built me up and let me fall like Jenga blocks

We played monopoly with my wallet

And you said I tasted of candy land

You said if anyone even moved as I walked you would let your glock pop

You said I give good top

But when I kissed you, you said stop

 

So I did

I can’t believe it