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I need help
This is the first time in a long time that I’ve said this
I regret the time I ignored your message
It’s sad because you were all I had ya know
I wanted to marry you but the one I’m with is currently high on coke
And is still in love with someone that lies down on beds but has no home
Oops no one was supposed to know
I’m ashamed of what I’ve become
An addict for addicts who couldn’t give a ***
Who couldn’t show me love
Who I could never trust
It’s sad how this is the first time I’ve written in a while
I miss the idea that I would have your first child even though we would face a bump in the miles and you would have met someone else and have a few from them but you would always come home
And we would be together again
Luxurious hugs again
Flirtatious jokes again
I know even the evangelicals and saints wish you stood beside them because you were pure
And I know for damn sure I never prayed to God for such a blessing to even smell the cologne we picked out together on your neck again
I know you’ll never find this and if you do I’m sorry for what was said and done
I hope you know that this isn’t something I do for fun
I don’t just write about the lovers and friends
They’ve always been about you
My one
