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I think I met an angel in disguise
she was a devil at first sight
a nightmare in the day time
am I going crazy or losing my mind
pulse check I'm still alive
in my sleep I could have died
caught lacking in my dream
need to start packing in my sleep
spitting fire through a carbine
elusive allusive illusive
clear in living color
in a realm with the others
think one was my mother
talking to me about my brother
like we close to each other
been done cut the ties
don't think I never tried
to say so is a lie
been in agony since
I been burned in the fire
found healing by the water
rose with the tides
an angel on one shoulder
a devil on the other
a spirit in my life
I don't think I love her
what is it supposed to be
when I don't trust it close to me
been feeling this way
everyday trying to say
get out of my way
I need my space
the look on her face
tells me I'm out of place
just paranoid trying to avoid
the inevitable haunting past
is hurt real if I can't feel
from numbing to kill
will I forget when I start to change
if I do will all be strange
like people in my dreams
or could it be I'm awake in theirs
never go to sights unseen
but I always seem to be there
doing things I wouldn't normally do
acting like one feeling like two
a circled dot on the cover of
a journal the depth of eternal
