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life

Crying out 
in a... 
- 
great voice 
- 
i project 
with almighty force 
a point of focus 

…it’s…
energies 
long building 
welling up within 
spirit and mind, 
body and... 
That other thing 

From the black hole

Of the soul
state of being 
caught up 
in the vacuum 
of existence 
where neither 
time or space 
holds sway 
sounding an alarm 
without 
deliberate thought 
issuing, no warning 
a deafening roar 
filling the void  
with a flash

Release 

Fury

Cast in a

Momentary
firestorm, 
flooding my
very existence 
in pseudo rage 

Then sending it 
into the abyss, 
lost between us 
forever cast in time 
its echoes sent in effect 
piercing a storm cloud, 
which explodes as if played

In offset

…step progressions... 

calling to the divine

but, losing ...signal... 

looking... 

more so than ever 

like, just another

lost connection... 

Madly spinning,

falling through space

As if still ablaze…

smoke trails streaming

As a slow motion parade

tossed in every direction

 Sending fragments 

flying to destinations

unknown... 

as if lit by full sun 

behind the clouds
to dissipate 

so swiftly to be
with alarming 
rapidity 
then 
disperse 
just 
as quickly 
leaving me here 
to flounder, 
in my doubts 
though 
alone again, 
i cry to 
an 
unknown 
savior... 
As, i 
a sailor 
lost from the 
comfort and calming 
waves of the sea 
experience, 
only an ocean away 
from being free 
once more to roam 
aimlessly, 
- 
although... 
With purpose 
- 
the rising winds 
screaming 
sent with defiance 
as i overcome 
my apprehension 
and now, 
the demons 
no longer trouble me 
knowing, who i am 
once more, 
i am free 
in the tempest

now in battle

against the tide

Which cannot

be conquered

Only turned

by sufficient force

To overcome

the very same

lost souls 

Caught up in

the waves

of circumstance
who would

in an almost

commonplace 

display

Continue

in displaying

their

characteristic

insanity

To replay an expression

of an  illness in their spirit

Those filled

with hatred,

rampant, rabid,

pervasive...    
as I recharge

…finding... 

my strength

returning 
channeling

lightning flash,

as thunder roars 
with each blow

as sword

meets shield 
arrows seeking

soul fly screaming

So rapidly

to close the gap

Through

the space between

To one, blinded

by the sun

In opening them

To find them

embedded

in falling soldiers

Where others

…either sickened, run

Or emboldened

by a call

of vengeance, innate
refreshed

by the

drawing of blood 
an effective,

time honored tradition 
not my own,

though i submit 

affected

All the same

that to no

man, woman

or child 

When struck

by my comrades loss,

Hatred transferred to heart

Becomes a cross to bear

Although bullets

fall like rain

I charge

through

space and time

To erase evil

from its intended course

At a blinding pace

…blow by blow

Withholding my fears

…lest I be overtaken
never to surrender

at heart

…though, I may be

wounded badly

Lest others lose heart

…as the balance

widely shifts

Forces confidence too

with the tally being made

Swept by forces

under the command of principalities

As I too suffer in a battle for my soul

Yet, I do not cry out for no one hears my pain 
my sense of purpose lost a mortal wound delivered, 
and as I fall… a last gasp slips from between my lips 

My life eclipsed by death …consciousness slips

My spirit drifts useless and helpless and limp

No grand gestures …only a lost soul

Tossed aside like an empty shell

Or carried away with dignity

Paying respect to honor

The fortitude

Of the fallen

Now to experience

A loss of contact

Even though, if   

Uselessly adrift 

Caught between…

Heaven and earth

…life and death

And my ex-

…life…

Where I

Once was

A soldier

Tossed

From a place 
where, i once felt safe 

…now, badly exposed

My silent screams

No longer penetrate

the void
still, obliterate

The silence

In this…

Soul+space 

When, an eerie calm 
answered by an anguish 
inherent within the condition 
of my afterlife ...new worlds  
Open the floodgates of my heart 

Which carries a spirit of its own

Hovers in despair

…and then tears it 
cruelly apart 

to wash away 
whatever,

kind respite 
i'd been granted... 
As i struggle to 
continue to 
survive 
with 
all 
my last 
hopes, 
dwindling 
my resources 
as i prepare for 

The next moment

Of forever

Upon return

To the source

Eternal springs

Wherein

We shall meet

In the spirit pools

From whence we came
…coming to surface 

From the depths

Where once again
my eyes meet yours 
what do i find there? 
Where the ...sweetness? 
And what ...serenity? 
Which ...loving touch

And calming

Reassurance

I implore

Eagerly

Wait

For

...? 
No…
not the anger 
and alarm, damn! 
Not...again? 
What noble sacrifice 
can i ever make 
which atones 
for...a 
perceived offense, 
one taken, even if by 
mistake by your 
implied slur

How ever  

Can i recover, from 
what i had long sought 
but, i never had, attained
…before this moment struck
and now, what i fear, has come
what may be... Lost forever 
where there is no second best, 
find, my heart, is being taken 
from me ...once again 
its as if, conspiracy 
is playing me 
like a "b" 
movie 
or 
in a 
painting 
freshly done 

Left outside, lost 

Neglected in the rain
being made to order

My lifeboat cast adrift,

A loss i can’t recover 

Lest it be an effort

Made in vain,

Never more 

To give me hope 
abandoned

Before made

An offering 
to that 
i have 
always 
wished for 
to return with, 
what may appear 
a malevolent hand 
tearing it from 
my grasp, 
even as i plead 
for a brief 
forbearance 
your anger 
holds you, 
it seems 
a willing 
captive 
…as i 
helpless 
to intercede 
just watch you 
at your greatest 
performance 
doing a 
dark tango 
each bold stroke 
deliberate …destroying 
what we worked so hard 
to build, almost

To perfection 
without, even a note 
we had boldly planned  
surrendering our egos 
…at the door…

Now  
just to dash it 
all away 
... 
- 
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