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Here,
I stand,
Desolate, shrouded in anger, guilt and despair,
Is it too much to know your worth?
To know that you were meant for more than just pain.
I was meant for love
A love that is my own
A love that I deserve
One that will follow me until the end of time
Tap into my soul
I beg you daily, and you miss the chance to know me
To see the parts of me that aren't so beautiful
To see my tears,
Maybe wipe them sometimes
Hug me until they dry
Make me feel like everything will be ok for once
And that you'll be here
When there are chains
When there are storms,
When a mountain falls onto my heart
That you will lift it for me
Hear my voice again
Like it’s the first time
When did you stop being in love with me?
When did you stop respecting me?
When did you begin to forget about me?
We shared possibilities of love that neither of us knew existed before
Before you were so sure
Or so it seemed?
It felt impossible
But we created a family
In all of this I just want to feel safe
I want to know love
So much love
And feel warmth everywhere
We are so sterile
Your words have become placebos to me
Your actions tear apart like Paper Mache
So thin
Don’t I deserve love?
One where your anger is replaced with gentleness & caring
I know you care
But your love isn’t strong enough to beat your pride
Resentment is dangerous
And,
Contagious
Are you here with me?
Did you even notice that I have been gone?
I love you
I didn’t stop
But I feel numb
So empty sometimes
I want to stop running away from you
Sew back the tether
But you keep cutting it
And now you don’t even realize how far that I have travelled without you
How far I’ve gone away
Pull me back to earth
I am too close to the sun
So close to the edge
That I may just fall in & never return to you
