Trying pain

CATEGORY

life

Been trying to find that focal point

inside myself

So that i may slip around the jagged edge

Of the crying pain

the vision of you near, lost from my joys

while i, cower like a child

Hiding my sorrows

in the shadows

in the rain

My breaking heart…

tearing itself apart

As painfully aware

of its impending end

As if it were not to be,

forever

Pretending

crushed hopes and broken dreams

Do not exist,

lost in the echoes

Of fallen love angels dance

In the shadows and darkness

circling  

As fate watchful and waiting

for the cue

The perfect moment

to take me down under

Angling from hidden depths within…

While i continue to struggle

Drowning in sorrow

in my empty room

Joyful memories

erasing themselves

from inside out

Ripped

from my burning sorrows 

Awaiting…

the kiss of death

Having a wistful look

frozen into a mantra

Skipping a stone

across the river of time

As my mind and thoughts unfold

Hoping, wishing praying, crying

still trying

For that miracle

ordered so long ago with you

As if.

Now,

i am alone with you,

still lost,

Still

trying to connect with you,

Even if i fail,

i will not stop

Been trying

to accept the cost

failure to resist...

the memory

of THAT... Kiss

…still Lost

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