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As I come to the end of my road
On this one-year journey
Without my husband,
Whom I will forever have love for,
I can see and feel
The road starting to smooth out.
Today I spoke with someone
Whose words comforted me and
Made these last few bumps
A little easier to take.
As I start on this new journey,
I’m looking forward to new things.
Never forgetting the memory
Of my husband but moving on
To a new happiness.
It’s been rough at times
But it’s been a learning experience
And I am almost there.
It’s kind of like slowly letting go;
Having but not wanting to
And watching as our fingertips touch
And let go for the very last time.
This is a new step for me
But with God’s guidance,
As I reach out to the hand
He appointed, I know everything
Will be as it’s supposed to be.
I’m learning how to trust God more and
Have patience even when it doesn’t seem
Like what’s happening is actually true.
I even wanted to give up at one time
And say forget it I’ll just go back
To what I’m used to.
But going backwards isn’t gonna get me
The happiness that I want.
The only way to get the happiness
That I truly want is to go forward.
Keeping in memory everything that I’ve done,
Everything I was taught and everything
I’ve been through but still moving forward.
I’ve sacrificed a lot in my lifetime;
Some worth it, some not.
But now this time is for ME.
This is my happy time.
And I will be!
©7/3 LP45
