T o d a y . .
is one of them days
that is so  f u c k e d  up
that it almost seems alright
    days like this make me think
                         I need a shrink
    or I’m on the brink
    of some insane madness
        laying on a couch
                 sipping latte
            
        telling lies
        being analysed
                               by someone
        more  f u c k e d  up than I    
        I hear myself scream
        watch myself bleed
        from wounds so old
          
               t r a n s f u s e d   .  .
        
        with blood so cold
        I barely live             
b u t ~
        in there somewhere
               there’s comfort
           
    I’m  halfway there ~
    
    between here
    and righteous prayer
t o t t e r i n g . .
    on the edge of terror
    that don’t quite get there
o n l y . .
    to find myself hiding
    cowering in the shadows
          trying not to be found
h o p i n g . .
    I’m not pushed
    by the voice in my head
        
    I understand quantum reality
                                  zeropoint
                        vacuum energy
spacetime
non-linear thought
                    dimensions
                    supergravity
                     the colliding branes
                                  of m-theory
                      gamma bursts
                     strings and things
particles and waves
                                            and
                       how the universe
                       was made
            
             but yet  . .
             
                            I’m caught
        in this perpetual cypher
        I can’t see the colours
        the fibres that define
        
 the simplicities of simplicity
                   the guise of war
   the lies of more and plenty
  the predator being prey
  the prey having his day
    
                abuse of the innocent  .  !
    the helplessness of the victim
    
    drunkenness wafts upon the breath
          how quickly does one forget
          what it was to hide
    
    stereoscopic eyes pierce the dark
                                and you’re ~ IT . . !
                      
    consumed by fear
    you dare not breathe
your heart staccatos its rhythm
                          and in all that
              you’re none the wiser
              
        you don’t recognise the lies
        of your truth
             you lay in wait
             the common prey
             
                             S e d u c e d  .  .  .
                    
       by the madness of the day
       I Don’t Like This S h i t   . !
 
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