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The waiting game a game I've played far to often and always ended up defeated
Racking my mind of ways I can make him change
Only to end up disappointed
He continue to do what he want when he want
No matter how it affected me
I just waited patiently
Patiently waited for him to see my side of things, just to see how I felt
Each time my heart melted
Melted into a big mess because I waited
Waited for change that never came
An apology the was never felt deserved
So why did he deserve my patience?
Forgiveness whether he was sorry or not?
Deep down inside I wanted it to work
After each incident I began to wonder
What am I doing?
What am I fighting for?
why do I feel like I'm the only one wanting this?
Why do I continue to play the waiting game while the one I'm waiting on is waiting on someone else
Someone who is not me
I have to gather myself up and leave
Leave everything behind and start all over again
Alone
Until I'm ready
Ready to make sense of it all
To cope with the past and accept my future
