Sometimes love isn't eough

CATEGORY

life

 Things have changed
My minds rearranged
And you, as awesome as you are, are no longer priority number one
Our love is special and rare
But for me it's no longer fun
I see me pulling in directions of which you're not willing to pay the fare
And I know it's not fair
That I hadn't the heart to tell you sooner
For that I'm sorry
Because I know how you feel similar to a love sick crooner
So I tell you that it's my heart that is faulty
In having no problem falling out of love so freely
Again I say I'm sorry and I plead for your forgiveness
And when I say it's not your fault please believe me
You've been a steady constant you but I who shall change never the less
But always the more
Forever willing to venture out to see what else maybe in store
Find other secrets i may unravel
New people I may encounter on my travels
And I hate for my wandering eye to taint the love that's so real
To afraid to *** up the happiness in your eyes
But I can't fight how I feel
Nor can I wear this disguise
Of the woman who was once happily un-distracted and focused on your whip appeal
Now I'm looking around
And only hear the trailing sounds of what I loved about us
I wanna leave without being repercussed
Or without leaving you all but broken
I'd rather not see you with a tattered heart
But with all of how I feel unspoken
I'm slowly but surely falling apart
Wish I could stay and be your forever and always
But for that I'd have to be sucked out of this shade of grey
That's built up in my mind and keeps me from fully loving you
So this is what I decided to do
To re-insure you that you've given me love
That you've done no wrong and this is all about me
I apologize that it took me so long to say to the point I had to deceive
That to fill the black whole in my heart us just wasn't enough
You've inspired me and cared
You never stopped being there
But this particular cross is one that i alone must bare
So please don't cry nor should you weep
Cause this has nothing to do with us or you but entirely me
So again I apologize for being another sad episode in the story of your life
But I can't do this to myself and I care too much for you to lie for another night.....