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Into your arms you welcome me,
A peace so surreal I feel as though it is a dream.
Each morning I thank God to be alive,
Only to sin as we embrace and reconnect our bonds.
Your kiss of emptiness taints my thought process,
Mindless I become losing focus with each breath I take.
As the sun reaches its peak,
My lust for you quickens.
I yearn for your taste once more.
I must have it I say!
Ignited passion spoils over from your love filter,
Your taste dissipates all things negative;
And for a moment I am free.
Only for a moment I feel warmth,
But as that moment resides I am left with nothingness.
The sun rests and the moon awakens,
Loneliness creeps in through the door I intentionally left open.
She caresses my mournful heart playfully,
Teasing me I struggle to fight only to lose.
Again I feel your warmth and just as quick as she came in,
From my sight Loneliness flees.
Shrouded in smoke you comfort my entire being,
Thoughts are neutralized for I am calm as your voice whispers the things my heart desires.
Once again your kiss grasps my soul,
Your touch amplifies my senses to a point of intense exstacy.
God save me I whisper, but the words are stolen from my lips.
Her thrust recoils the very air used to form those pleaful words,
I am at her mercy.
Tell me you need me she whispers as she wipes the tears from my eyes,
Tell me I am forever in your debt for it is I who never abandons you in your darkest times.
Tell me that it is I who completes you....
Yes...
What more can I say?
You are the sin I cannot break free from,
The sin that soothes me and distills my chaotic mind.
Temporarily you do complete me,
But I must take my leave.
Far too long have you toyed with my emotions,
Snatching everything that involves happiness from me;
Deceiving me to no end I believed in you with each hit I took!
You were never there for me as you say!
You only satisfied my falsehood of tranquility briefly!
Dry your tears for I mean no harm,
But you have harmed me for over 10 years my dearest.
I have to stop this for my sake for my body cannot take this,
In Jesus' name I ask, pray, and beg for His strength;
To lead the way in this battle as I follow.
Forgive me for misleading you this long,
My intentions were good, but it did not benefit me.
Yes, at times I will slip and yearn for your taste,
But when I finally say enough is enough;
Our paths shall never cross again.
