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if it wasnt for baby girl
my soul wouldve lifted from this world
i know things could be worse
but imagine if you bottle in all that hurt
and all the sudden every emotion just spilled out the bottle
cold hearted that spot hollowed
i only feel joy when i see my lil girls smile
its like time stops i feel complete for a while
but then im over come with anger and rage
since shes been born i locked those feelings in a cage
family is always beefing and my friends i cant trust them
being betrayed ive become acustom
to the hurt cuz that the only thing thats been consistant
i think back to the day i took them pills but my soul never lifted
i begged god to take this pain away
but i guess it was in his plans that here i must stay
i should be happy for all that ive got
but all i wanted was someone to confide in am i asking for alot?
its hard to be true eith oneself so let me break down the cards i am dealt
my family never gets along and it hurts like hell
i have an ex that plays with my emotions anytime he needs help
i got a friend that feel the need to tell my secrets to my eniemies
and baby daddy who only cares about playing video games on tv
theres alot inbetween it was just to much to write
but know matter how many punches i continue to fight
but now im tired and i need to retreat
i tried praying to good but i guess he dont here me
every night i wake up with a lump in my throat
holding in all this sorrow
does someone have a better life i could at least borrow
i need to escape and these tress and doing the trick
the thoughts i have of suicide some may say im sick
an i am sick and tired of things not going right
waiting for my soul to take flight
