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i thought i was over you
But after our conversation about nothing in particular it showed me my heart wasnt clear of feelings for you
My eyes filled with tears
Before my mind could process what was going on
I wasnt in control
My disguise was uncovered
I wonder if you knew
Was there nervousness in voice?
Could you tell my heart was pounding out of my chest?
If you could you didnt say a thing
You just carried on with the conversation like we were old friends
After the phone call ended my heart and mind did cartwheels
Feelings of regret sunk in
Questioning myself what have i done?
For deciding to give up everything i ever wanted for something unclear
If i was in the same situation again how would i feel
Would my heart want to stay or run away
When problems arise
Testing our endurance
I thought my heart was healed and i no longer felt anything when i heard your voice
Instead it sends chill down my spine
Like when we first met i cant let you know
I wasnt ready for all of this my mind said yes
While my mind confessed deep feelings i attempted to tuck away
That only put them on display
Causing an emotional tug of war
I have to put on my poker face
I cant let you see me like this
You cant know that i still care
Because you've moved on and you said she is here to stay
So i'll just conceal my feelings in my notebook and as tears on my pillow
