Lonely

All alone at 4 am,

Laughing to myself to keep from crying,

To much co motion going through my head,

Having bad episodes in my head,

Insomnia won't let me rest,

Motionless body movements,

Just lifeless thinking,

As it gets worse,

A tear falls from my eye,

But I can't feel no pain,

I turn to my side,

Sliding the phone into my palm,

And sliding into your messages,

No reply,

No reply from her either,

Nobody's replying to me,

I turn over painless,

Sure of me not wanting to exist,

And unsure of dying today or tomorrow,

I've ran out of emotions,

With no care,

Everybody got 99 problems,

And my one problem is to disappear...